Ilford transsexual medium says she can feel spirits after becoming a woman
PUBLISHED: 17:42 01 August 2018 | UPDATED: 18:33 01 August 2018
Silvery flecks of dust float in the bright shaft of window light.
Despite the remnants of a glorious day outside, I sit in a packed room with around a hundred other people, eyes facing forward.
The only exception to the mass stillness and silence is a woman sitting behind me.
As gentle tears roll down her face, she whispers “thank you”.
Before you think I have run away and joined a cult or decided to audition as an extra in a futuristic dystopian movie I need to come clean and reveal that I am relatively safe and have come to watch a show by medium Rebecca “Becs” Sawyer who grew up in Ilford.
If every medium has a back story, then Becs has a seven-part series and she claims that her gift only manifested after she changed sex from a man to woman.
A former 6ft 2in martial arts trainer, who was bullied at school, she said it was only when she was true to herself that she could feel spirits.
“I always had a passion for it but nothing really developed much until I went through my own emotional and physical transition – then the spiritual stuff opened up,” she said.
“I came across some brilliant tutors and mentors who helped me and we all have the ability – it is not a superpower.
“I don’t think unless I went through the transistion it would have happened.”
Just like living people, Becs said spirits of the dead all have different energies and personalities and she doesn’t like all of them.
“Some of them have an issue with the trans stuff, and I think oh go away, get out my head,” she said.
“Some of the more curious ones ask to take a look at my bits after the operation and I tell them to F off, but a lot of them are lovely too.”
Becs said all mediums have to heal themselves before the spiritual side can manifest and her abilities didn’t happen overnight.
She said everyone is on a journey and she has only scraped the surface with her talent and is a “work in progress”.
“Spirits haven’t got a voice box they have to use my memories and feelings to communicate – we come together,” she added.
“My job is to get my brain out the way so they can do their job and I can narrate their story.
“It is all about trying to give them a voice.”
During the show Becs channels a grumpy nan, a suicide victim and someone who was shot dead by a group of boys.
She spends time tracking the right person in the room to deliver the message to and said “if it doesn’t fit, I am not going to make it fit, I can only pass on what I pick up on – I am a mobile phone mast”.
In the two hour performance, the messages Becs received from the other side vary in their subject and while one wanted to let his family know he was safe, another one wanted to pass on messages of love.
Even the most cynical audience member could see that people were getting an enormous rush of comfort from the messages and Becs had the knack of fluidly and sensitively turning the mood from serious to making the room laugh with her witty observations.
“I am trying to show people that love and life is eternal – every culture talks about consciousness, a soul, a spirit,” she said.
“You can’t change the physical pain people go through, but I can give comfort, I can give them a life reunion.
“I am not the right medium for everyone, I don’t go it all love and light, not every relationship was wonderful but I can help them heal they deserved to be healed.
“That’s the joy of my job that a relationship continues.”
Becs holds shows in Chingford, Romford and Redbridge, visit her facebook page @BecsUK for more information
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